Recollection.

Haven’t been here in awhile.

http://www.odmp.org/

something to give me focus.

I love you. I’m sorry I do the things I do. I don’t think sometimes, even though I really should.

We Knew.

We knew it was going to be hard, being 120+ miles away from each other, already adding onto how difficult it was going to be to keep up with each other.  You’re constantly working, making you way too tired to have to deal with drama.  

You don’t need that, you don’t need me making yourself worry when your life is tiring enough.  

I miss you terribly.  I want to see you badly.  I was debating whether I should just drive back up to Chicago today just to see you.  But I’ll know you would have yelled at me for being stupid.

I’m going to do my best to not make you worry anymore.  Because in the end, you’re the most important to me.

i wish..

I wish there was a way i could go to sleep and it would be may already.. I don’t want to be here. that, or I wake up and im done with school completely and i can just go back to chicago already. I need to see Aura, I don’t think I can do this without her.. this is going to be the longest I’ve ever been away from her and im already feeling the effects..

I miss you.

Worried.

Worried about what the future holds.

I’m going to miss her dearly.  There’s a part of me that feels like I won’t be able to do anything without her.

At this point I’m actually almost hoping I’m forced to stay in the city.  At least, that way I’ll be able to see Aura.

Can’t sleep.

Just thinking about the next year without seeing her almost everyday.. it makes me feel numb.  I think I’ll miss her too much to even focus on school. 

I’ll call again on Monday.  I feel like I’ll actually be relieved if I have to stay in the city.  At least then I won’t feel like my insides are tearing.  

Fun times.

Good day today,

spent the day with my significant other, and close friends and family.

Summer days don’t get better than this.